This seems to be the story of my life right now. Waiting. It's been a good season though. Currently I'm waiting on hold to talk to someone in California about transferring my teaching license. What a fun evening.

I officially told my principal on Monday and she responded in a much better way than I was anticipating. Not that I thought it would be horrible but she was really encouraging. Considering I'm the second one from our 4th grade team leaving, that felt like something. She gave me a lot of compliments as well. As hard as she is to work for because of her high expectations, I'm thankful to have had the opportunity and learned how to deal with everything. For the most part:)

Tomorrow is 60 days until the big move out day from our complex. Each day it gets a little bit closer and a little bit more real and a little bit bigger. I'm excited, don't get me wrong, but the reality is sinking in and it's definitely bigger than I initially realized. It just doesn't "hit" you until it starts happening. Especially now that I don't have a job anymore... that was one of those reality sinkers.

I'm so excited though. People continually ask me why and what has made it become official and why we can't stay. All these answers point directly to the Father. He's the author and finisher of our faith and we're doing this because not doing it would be disobedient. We know it's what He's calling us to do, even though it means leaving a place that has become home. I've already told some but I really think it's going to be harder to leave Florida than it was to leave Indiana. We're leaving friends that we've been intentional about having and getting to know and spending time with. I'm leaving an amazing community of teachers and supportive parents. I've told myself I will not cry until June so I need to stop talking about this now.

On the up side, Danny's taking pictures. Lots of them. And they're so good. I'm so excited for him. I love that he's working on opening up other avenues of income for himself by improving his photography skills. If you know him, check them out on his facebook. If you don't, check out www.millerdanny.com for some older ones. I'm so proud of him.

Well I'm off hold now so it's time to go grade papers. Let the count-down begin!

That's what God gave me this morning. It was incredible. This whole LA thing has been something that I've been excited about from the beginning b/c it's what God told Danny. It's something He started in 2000 and it's coming full circle. I've been excited b/c I'm supportive. Any time my husband is following Jesus and doing what He's called him to do... I'm all for it.

Since before we got married though I have wondered how God was going to work our visions together. My vision is simply to love people. That's it. But I've always felt called to the nations. Since high school really. I love to travel and I love to meet God's people in other countries. I think they're amazingly beautiful. I've always thought I would be a goer. To other nations. While dating, Danny kind of admonished me about loving people in my own country before loving people in other countries... go to my own before going elsewhere. I didn't pay too much attention, though it's always been in the back of my mind. With going to LA I've thought my dreams would come true in that I would get to travel and go on trips during my summer vacations... once the money started coming in of course.

Move forward to this morning. I fell apart in church yesterday. We bought a new/used car b/c ours have basically fallen apart. My little brother flew down to help us and we feel like we got a really great deal. Definitely a God-thing. In doing so though... we've really depleted our reserves financially. We also realized this weekend that we're 3 months out from this move. 100 days almost to the "T". Even though I'm sure this car is a gift from God b/c of the cost and the mileage and just what it is in general, it's tough b/c our finances look crazy now. I literally have no idea how we're going to survive the next 3 months. We've got some help coming from family (hopefully) to replenish and we got this message from a guy in LA that we've been talking to. He mentioned building up a prayer team and asking for monetary support.

It was a good day in church. A great day really. God met me when I fell apart. I needed to fall apart and ask for help... ask for someone to stand in the gap with me that God is our Jehovah Jirah... our Provider. It's something that I can say all the right words to but couldn't believe in my heart until someone else prayed with me. Oh the goodness of the body of believers. So many other good words from Pastor Sam as well. Like the fact that God is not testing us; He's testing our FAITH. Like the fact that if I can think it, I can make it happen. What would I need God for if I could do it? We reason ourselves out of God's plan b/c it doesn't sound logical and it doesn't make sense to our little human minds. If I can't imagine how it's going to happen, how it's going to work out, that's when I can trust and know that it's God b/c His dreams are so much bigger than my own. When I need Him to make things happen b/c I can't do it myself, then I know it's His; and that He alone will take care of it for His glory.

Sorry... bunny trails that all lead up to the goodness of this morning.

So I'm doing devotions this morning, just praying and journaling about the service and what God said and then about this whole idea of raising support. When I said that a lightbulb went on. HELLO!!!!! We need to think about raising prayer and monetary support b/c we truly are going to a very dark (spiritually) area of the country. It's my country, but these people need Jesus just as much as people in 3rd world countries that I love to travel to do. Basically, God opened my eyes this morning to my purpose in LA. I get to be the missionary I've always dreamed of being. I get to be the goer. I get to love people who don't know Love.

So after almost 5 years of marriage and wondering how God was going to make a way for our 2 visions to become one, I have my answer. I am speechless at how my God works. I am speechless at big my God is. I stand in awe of the Creator of the Universe. Within the last month I have watched my God work in ways that are beyond words. He is so big, so great that words cannot even describe.

This journey that we're on is not going to be a walk in the park; anything but really. It's going to difficult and lonely and probably the hardest thing we've done up to this point. And yet I'm excited. I'm so excited b/c it's beyond us. I can't wait to see what else the Lover of my Soul does, see how He works out all the details of this trip, and continue to glorify His name above all other names. I wish I had the words.